It has been a while since I posted on this blog. I’ve never had much time to write stuff until now. I felt the need to write, to have an outlet, to fill that void. That need is to be part of a life sharing group. That void is haven’t been able to be part of our Word Sharing Circle for I think almost a year now.
So I thought of using this blog to have my own venue for Word Sharing.
Even though I don’t have other people joining me to share their life with me, at least I think I have people who will listen.
So in the spirit of our Word Sharing Circles every Wednesday, and the techie-yuppie version, the short-lived Watering Hole Wednesdays, welcome to my Word Sharing Wednesdays and here is my sharing.
Righteousness (from the second reading)
“Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.” – Galatians 6:9
I am not a good or holy person. I haven’t been able to attend Mass regularly. Praying is something that I do whenever I’m in trouble or having some big problems. Sometimes, I think too highly of myself only because I can’t really define the line between being confident and being proud or how different they are.
I’ve been struggling for the past months trying to think if I am the one at fault or the people around me, if I’ve been pushing people away or is it them pushing me away.
I want to think that I am good enough, that I’ve been trying hard to be nice and friendly but to no avail. So I stopped trying. Maybe there’s nothing wrong with me. I felt better after accepting that realization. But it was short-lived. I’ve become miserable again. And reflecting on all of it, perhaps I’ve become self-righteous.
The other day, I received this text message from one of our elders in our religious organization. It says, “Let’s keep telling others they matter. It is not easy having a kind heart in a stressful, complicated world, and our greatest test is when we are able to bless someone else while we are going through our own storms.” It reminded me of Galatians 6:9 where it says that we should not get tired of doing good. Perhaps I shouldn’t stop trying to be nice even if some people who would care at all because there are other people who might appreciate it.
Always try to be humble. Learn from your mistakes. Always do your best, be your best.
Father God, grant me patience and a kind, understanding heart. As I try my best to become a better employee, may I put being a better person first because I know that at the end of the day, that is what matters most. I am a person first, a being who is capable of loving other people. I know it is a struggle as the battle to choose love over hate is difficult but I know that with your help, slowly but surely, I will win that fight. All this I ask in your most powerful name. Amen.
Thank you, guys, for reading. I do hope I would be able to keep this blog going, posting my reflection every Wednesday and maybe other stuff as well.
Be the blessing!