Disturb us, O Lord
when we are too well-pleased with ourselves
when our dreams have come true because we dreamed too little, because we sailed too close to the shore.
Disturb us, O Lord
when with the abundance of things we possess,
we have lost our thirst for the water of life
when, having fallen in love with time,
we have ceased to dream of eternity
and in our efforts to build a new earth,
we have allowed our vision of Heaven to grow dim.
Stir us, O Lord
to dare more boldly, to venture into wider seas
where storms show Thy mastery,
where losing sight of land, we shall find the stars.
In the name of Him who pushed back the horizons of our hopes
and invited the brave to follow.
They said that we should be worried when we dont have problems in our lives. It means that we are not being challenged, molded, tested to be better versions of ourselves; to be more of what God has planned us to be.
Last Wednesday, me and my friends from the Singles Ministry had our Word Sharing Circle (WSC) and my sharing was about how lately, I feel like not coming to these WSCs because I feel like I dont have anything to share. On these WSCs, more often than not, the things that we share are our current struggles and lately, I dont have any of those. I dont have problems.
I lack disturbance. I feel like nothing’s happening in my life right now. Being unemployed, I have nothing much to do. Doing nothing means having nothing to be happy or sad about, nothing to worry about, nothing to think about. I want to cry for crying means I’m dealing with something painful. I desire pain because it makes me feel alive and no, i wont hurt myself just to feel pain.
Ironic enough, my problem is about having no problems. I dont know how to explain what I’m currently feeling right now, what I need, what I desire to feel. I know God does. I just pray that if He does disturb me, dont let it be about my family. Anything else but my family.